I never thought I would end up here. But this is the reality I am in. In the past ten months I have had to face some of the most difficult realities and at many points I just didn't think I would survive. The discovery of my husbands betrayal was gutrenching, pit in the stomach, down to my soul pain. Not only was my husband engaged in multiple affairs, he had been sleeping with prostitutes for years. The man I thought I knew was no where to be found. The man I married was loyal to his family, almost to a fault. He was hard working and one of the smartest people I had ever met. But deep down he had a hidden darkness that was destroying him and our marriage. After the discovery of the betrayal, lies, financial mess, and complete deserition of our marriage,I fell into a deep darkness of my own. The depth of darkness I went into was so deep that I never thought I would get out. But, I have recently realized that there is a way out. This blog is more of a public journal and a map of my way out. So, if your reading this, I hope you find some hope in knowing that there is a way out of your pain and darkness...it doesn't have to last forever. Dealing with the pain and trauma of someone else's sexual addiction does not have to ruin your life. I hope to offer some encouragement and reality to this painful journey that so many spouses find themselves on.